Tired

I’m tired.

I’m tired of dealing with morons day in and day out.  Every humorous or positive post is ignored or discounted, but every negative one gets attention.  I’m tired of people only caring about what I have to say when it offends their delicate sensibilities.

I’m tired of the daily onslaught of news and social tweets of idiots who think it’s funny that our civilization is literally dying.  They praise the death of the United States, of white men, of Christianity, and of Christendom.

I’m tired of trying to convince good people that there are wicked, evil degenerates out there who have declared open war on all white, straight, Christian men.  They do not seem to understand this and often times make excuses for their actions.

I’m tired of people misrepresenting freedom of speech.  The concept only applies to the government, which has restricted it and nobody seems to care.  No, you bastards are whining about Facebook, Twitter, YouTube, etc. and how they are letting you get a soapbox.  Build your own fucking soapbox!

I’m tired of people who tell me I should be nice.  Be nice to freaks who behave like children as they do inexplicably disgusting things to their bodies in order to garner attention.  I will not be nice to people who do not deserve it.  They are disgusting pigs and should laughed and ridiculed.

I’m tired of people assuming that morality comes from the government.  This is especially frustrating in a representative democracy where you the people get to vote on your leaders who then tell you what your morality should be.  In other words, you get to say what is good and what is evil rather and can potentially make evil good through your vote.

I’m tired of people saying Donald Trump is sexist or racist or whatever.  Tell me at what point did he make statements where he expressed interest in rounding all women or all non-whites and throwing them into ghettos or concentration camps?  If you cannot, you are just being a complete asshole and should kiss my ring.  The one in between my butt cheeks.

I’m tired of being called sexist or racist by people who won’t bother to actually try and understand what I mean.  If you don’t want to talk to me like a reasonable person, then you don’t deserve to be given the time of day.

I’m tired of all the heretics who blaspheme my God.  They assume that God is a passive, non-confrontational God and emulate this by making men into pussies and women into narcissists.  They allow women to rule over them, thus giving into the curse of Sin, and absolve women of all their moral failings, opting instead to blame men instead.  Fuck those losers.

In short, I’m tired of a great many things.  I think I need a break for a bit.  Unfortunately, my responsibilities in life prevent me from doing so but I can try.

Starvation

Hope is the most difficult, terrible thing that man has.  Despair is so much easier in the face of problems that we face either personally or collectively.  It is easy to lose yourself in it, to absorb your sadness into your heart and to bring yourself into those dark places we all go from time to time.

Not everyone can deal with it properly.  Most people can’t really.  We close off our family and friends.  We find ourselves in isolation and become even more solipsistic than before.

Others lash out at people.  They attack others for not fulfilling them.

People are often mistaken when they believe that others can make them whole.  It isn’t limited to the realm of the ignorant either, just the foolish.  The great Greek philosophers would speculate on people making other people whole.

I know that becoming whole is much more than simply finding comfort in another person.  We are all hollows wandering this world seeking to devour our happiness and find our hearts.

But I would rather starve.  I would rather be alone in my misery than see others suffer for it.

Sometimes that can’t be helped though.  If human beings are social creatures, then we are doomed to affect those around us whether we like it or not.

The Acceptance of Mediocrity

The self-esteem movement has hurt my generation more than it has helped it.  I don’t know who the asshole was who started it, but he’s on my short list of people I’d like to time-travel-shin-kick.  Because of it, individuals now overestimate their abilities and intelligence more so than ever before.

Contrary to popular belief, not all people are equal.  Sure, you can argue that we are all equal in the sense that we’re all going to die, but that’s about it.  Beyond that, there is little much else that.  We are all snowflakes, after all.

More to the point, by what metric does our society tend to measure equality?  Usually it is a financial one based on ability, but even ability is not a good indicator.  I have about seven years worth of software development experience, but that doesn’t make me the same in ability as another software developer with the same amount of experience.  There are specific fields of interest within that realm, different tools that can be used, and frankly different lines of thinking as to how to solve a problem.  That’s what an interview is for.  A resume tends to be too general.

And yet we are infected with this progressive notion of fairness and equality that has blossomed into a giant tumor on our society complete with hair and teeth.  People regard things they have not earned as some kind of human right that must be forced out of others all for the sake of some farcical notion of equality.

Why am I saying all this?  Because I enjoy being iconoclastic.  I love tearing down the silly notions that rule our society because often times they are built on lies and misconceptions.  For example, when I was teaching the youth during Sunday school a few weeks back, one kid stated that some idea wasn’t fair.  I retorted that God isn’t fair.  I wonder if she stated as much to her parents.  I doubt her parents would have disagreed.  Undoing 30 hours of government skooling is difficult but thoroughly enjoyable.

We all like to think there is some grand purpose to our lives, but I think that our lives are a blessing and that we really shouldn’t ask for much more.  As terrible as things may turn out for us, at least we had a chance to exist.  Think about all the prophets, kings, and other significant people in the Old Testament Bible.  There were maybe a hundred or so.  But there were literally millions of people throughout the course of the nation of Israel who never did anything significant enough to be mentioned.  Heck, some kings only got a footnote-sized mention in the chronicles.  In other words, despite being proclaimed as a holy people, set aside for God, the vast majority of the Israelites lived a mediocre life.

Such is the fate most of us.  There are very few who will have a significant effect on the course of mankind.  You think my blogging will make a difference in anyone’s life?  I don’t, I just do this to provide some kind of rant outlet for myself.

And this is where the self-esteem movement has done more harm than good.  People don’t realize that they are going to live a life of mediocrity for their entire life but instead focus on making it big somehow.  Perhaps this is the attitude that created the various bubbles we’ve see in the past two decades.  People thinking they are better than their own estimation.  I doubt anyone really learned their lesson.

The Internet, The State, and Liberty

With all this fuss over Wikileaks, I’ve noticed that the supporters seem to believe that the Internet has provided the technology to combat tyranny and corruption like nothing else.  I think many people are becoming arrogant in thinking that they can beat the State simply by logging on.  I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but the State has always found a way to combat the efforts of the people to be free.  It is reflected in the long history of man’s struggle to dominate and fight against dominance.

The natural tendency of the State is to devise new means to conquer, to subdue, and to crush the opposition.  The very nature of the government is similar to a drug cartel (or any other cartel, really).  They do not like competition and they will fight tooth and nail to keep their power.

What Wikileaks has done is annoy them.  Sure, they have retaliated against Julian Assange, as any sane person would argue that Assange is innocent if the only evidence is a broken condom.  We all know that these rape charges are bogus and that the State is using these women in order to set an example for the rest of us.  Of course, to believe that, you’d also have to believe that there was some group behind the scenes orchestrating the events we are seeing now.

Whoever they are, if they do exist, it is clear that they seek to dominate and profit from the rest of us.  My chief goal in life has been to get to a point where I don’t have to be bothered by anyone.  I have no desire for power or dominion over others.  Why should I seek to steal the freedom of my fellow man in order to obtain my own?  Sure, it’s much more difficult to do so, but I think it is all worth it.

These men have other ideas in mind.  Many of them are probably guided by their own ideologies, which are more than likely various Statist theories, such as Fascism, communism, and Socialism, cobbled together for their own benefit.  I’m certain there is a religious component as well, although they may have devolved into mere hedonists without reverence to any god, which makes them even more dangerous.  Say what you want about religion, but it does keep most people honest.

Conspiracy aside, the very nature of the State is one of violence and vengeance.  Sure they use terms like ‘armed conflict’, ‘justice’, and ‘equality’, but if you have any sense you’ll know that the State is always set up not to govern, but to oppress.  Sure, every once and a while some men come along who seek to establish something better, like the Founding Fathers did, but that never lasts long.  It didn’t take long for the Federal government to pass the Alien and Sedition Acts.

Keep in mind also that while the Internet is an electronic repository of trillions of ideas (and many like mine are usually worthless), there are physical points of access that the State can regulate and control.  Routers can be shut down, wires can be cut, and domains can be blocked.  The United States government has demonstrated slick craftiness in developing a worm that literally took out Iran’s nuclear program, even though that whole system was on a closed network.  Do not assume for a minute that the State cannot come up with ways to properly deal with activity like Wikileaks.

Is the fight worth it?  Well, you have to weigh the benefits of your freedom with the benefits of living under what is now a soft tyranny.  For many people, I suspect that this is not a hard choice to make and that living under a soft tyranny is a great trade off for the benefits you gain from it.  Like having the trains arrive on time and all that.

But don’t lose heart.  The United States was founded by a war of independence, of which only about 33% supported it.  Another third fled to Canada because they enjoyed tyranny.  So while those of us who love liberty and freedom are few, we are able to do so much more.  Never forget that a single man can change the course of humanity.

Ramblings On Online Privacy

So there’s been a lot of controversy about online privacy.  Apparently, many sites online have been using people’s information for their own purposes and that’s just something that has stop because people just want to live their own lives without the negative attention.

We all have dark secrets.  Mine are pretty bad and downright sociopathic when I reflect on them.  And believe me, I’m pretty sure that my weird Internet fetishes are stored on some server in a Cox office and on some Federal government server.

I do value privacy.  But I think I confuse it with solitude sometimes.  Actually what I really want in life is to be left alone by external forces and influences.  There are very few who I allow to influence my decisions and usually these are trusted people.  Even then, as my wife can attest to, I usually keep such influences to a minimum.  At least I’d like to think that.

Trusting people is just not something I do.  I know, coming from a Christian, that seems a bit contradictory.  The truth is, I trust regular folk more than I trust my inner Christian circles.  Often times I find that many of them can be a little arrogant and self-righteous and such people have no qualms about using gossip to their advantage.

So when I say that the only porn I look at, much to my shame (and honestly, not that often), usually involves only two or three ladies, I say so with the complete and utter disregard for the 15 people who regularly read this.  I am not proud of it nor do I wish to share any more on the subject.

The point of that solipsistic rant is that I don’t care about my online privacy all that much.  While I don’t volunteer my address or anything like that, I’m sure if someone really wanted to harm me, it wouldn’t be hard to find me.  When I was in college, I looked up my old girlfriend from high school.  For some reason I couldn’t get her off my mind.  And I ended up finding her address using the Internet and the few scraps of information she told me about her college plans.  And you know what?  I married that girl.

The truth is, I don’t believe that it is the privacy that people care about.  If they really cared about privacy, they wouldn’t be using the Internet or be actively engaged in social networking or blogging.  I think the real threat is the fear that other people might discover just how lame they really are.  Deep down, the millions upon billions of people who use the Internet are simply just one series of lame individual after another.  And believe me, I am no exception to this trend.

People want to think of themselves as important, as better than everyone else.  This is one of the common factor of men and women throughout much of history.  The truth is, most people are going to live a relatively pointless life (by the world’s standards) and die a painful, unhappy death.  Oh, and don’t worry, there will plenty of pointless and unrewarding struggles along the way.  I once heard someone say that husbands die before their wives usually out of despair.  It would be nice to have that much power of your own life.

The solution to all this?  Abandon the Internet or get over your fear of mediocrity.  Either way, you’ll find that privacy isn’t all that important anymore.

And to all my fellow Church members who read this I have one thing to say to you: I fully expect funny looks when I see you on Sunday.  Keep in mind that if you call me out on my disgusting and infrequent porn habits, I’ll just leave the Church.  I know it’s wrong and I don’t need your self-righteous lectures on the subject matter.

Burnout Blog Post #1

I've been experiencing some kind of burnout lately.  This is probably obvious since my last few blog posts haven't been all that good.  In light of this, I'm going to do what most other bloggers do: post stuff that isn't my own ideas.

Today, though, it's Reason.tv interviewing Judge Andrew Napolitano:


Part 2: